I am shy person and there were things that I didn't said to the person or even people about what I think about it and there were times that I really regret not speaking up or not telling them about the ideas or what's on my mind.
There were lots of what if's that goes through my mind about the situation that I never said the things that I want to say to them and thinking that what if I said those words to them, will the course of my action change them or change their course of future?
But this topic that I want is for myself, from my present self, I want to tell about my past self on the things that I never said to it.
That what if I talked to anyone during my childhood days, high school, or even in college days? Not just anyone but the people that I met because I'm a person that is too shy to talk to people even if it's my first time meeting with them but the challenging part was how to start a conversation with them but ended up with no talking at all.
But what if I talked to them, will it change my life now? Maybe yes or maybe no but there were some regrets that up until now I didn't forget.
There was one time when I was still a first year in college and it was time for medical clearance that we need to do that was located in the school itself.
Then there was this girl that was beside me, she was casually asking about stuffs but after that, no talking at all. I was hesitated at that time and I was furious by myself on not talking to her and not even knowing her name, too.
It was a regrettable decision by myself on not talking to her after asking me about stuffs and that was one of the unforgettable things that I've never done in my life.
Although, there was a time that I met her in school and we smiles together but never did I ask her for her number or even her name and all I just know was her face at that time but now, even I forget her face.
Anyway, not that I want to remember her now because I have now my own family but the thought that gives me idea about what would happen if I do this and that...
But still, that's a past experience by myself and I want to forget it because I don't want to ruin my family now and I'm happy with my family that I have now and continuing on our journey as a family.
