One of my fear is not being able to take care of my mother in her old age, she has sacrificed her younger self to take care of us and and not being able to take care of her in her later years is not what I pray for. My mother can still do things for herself because she is not that old yet but I have already witnessed what it is like at old age taken care of my grandma before she passed away.
The old age will take a lots of things from us and the ability to move freely is one of them. Taking care of my Grandma, I learnt a lot of things. She was blessed with good memory and she remembered all of her children including her grandchildren.
My grandma was a neat freak but suddenly she started wee on the bed and the thing is she will know that she wants to wee but since she can't move freely without the help of other was the source of the problem. If she wants to poo, before she could finished telling us that she wants to poo, she will be already do the business on herself, it's like holding it is impossible.
I will have to clean her, change the bedsheet and make sure I spray the room in order for others to be able to breathe properly. My grandma always refused to bath whenever I'm not around and I always wondered why but I came to realization when I came home from an errand and met my aunty mistreating my grandma, her mother for that matter. She was saying she was tired and I understand her, it's not easy taking care of someone but it is what we have to do
When she left, my grandma started telling me all the sort of things she has been doing to her. She said she did not fear death, she only feared being a burden to her children with tears in her eyes. I don't want to be a daughter like that, I want to be a daughter who can take care of her mother even in a worst state because she also did in my worst state.
I can not repay her for what she has ever done for me, even if I tried, I will only be able to do just a little out of it. She never abandon me when I need her, so why will I abandon her when she needs me. I only pray for the grace of God to make me a worthy daughter who can take care of her mother at her old age
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