We tend to live from one day to the next, amazing how many responsibilities one has around a home, much more difficult coping on your own.
I stopped travel to/from Durban years ago after attempted hi-jacking, really put the wind up me, so wherever you wonder try take someone with always.
Losing loved ones, our time keeps ticking, loss forever felt no such thing "you get over it", you don't, simply carry on remembering the good times!
I rely on my son to keep everything going, NZ did not work out, so fixing/repairing flatlet for him, hubby refuses to see doctor trying to convince me he has lost it therefore unable to assist... Not much I can do unless the person admits problem to a doc for medication.