Am I happy right now? I could say that I'm not happy right now as I am struggling my life right now and It's like a thin thread that is only holding me this life right now but I still think it in a positive way.
Even if I am holding in a thin thread that could break anytime but I wouldn't stop until I will get happy for myself and not just for myself but for my family, too, as they are my strength and my motivation on why I push myself to the limit extending more time in thinking and such.
Well, with my current life right now, finding another job is stressful and wonders if this is the right choice that I made but I think it's for me to grow and move forward. Although, there were lots of companies, people that I applied to but in the end, I won't get hired easily.
That's competition for you because I'm not the only one who is finding a job but lots of us that are seeking for a itself and secure a job itself. Well, it makes me anxious on not landing for the job that I want although, I have a sideline job that I do in case of emergency but it hits different when you do a job that you loved the most and at the same time, a competitive salary that you could ever imagine.
But yeah, small steps of finding a job lots of rejections while applying for the job, it's still a progress for me and an example that I will strive for more and give more time on what do I lack for myself even though I tried my best on that thing. Improving my skills makes myself more motivated as I grew more experience to the skills that I want to learn.
Being happy is not that you have a good work but it's also a healthy lifestyle with yourself, family, and the people around you.
