If I could travel through time, I would choose to go back to my past. Did I dislike my present? No, I strongly believe that there was a dream that I left unattended to. This is Ladies of Hive contest #277 questioned and judged by @sacra97.
From my young age, I had always wished I was born into a family that truly valued education. I admired children whose parents encouraged and supported their ambitions. Deep in my heart, I wanted to become a nurse. I always loved caring for people, comforting the sick, and being present for those who are in pain. Yes nursing was my calling.
I had a close friend who i shared the same dream with. We planned everything together, we talked about nursing school, about wearing our uniforms proudly, about building our careers that would help us care for others and stand on our own. We were passionate and determined about our dreams. My friend parents were enlightened and believed strongly in education. They stood behind her dreams and gave her the encouragement and financial help she needed. Today, she is a nurse, and she's living the dream we once shared.
As for me, I struggled on my own to see if I could make it into nursing school without anyone's support or guidance, it became too difficult. Then I decided to get married since that was the only way out, believing that my husband would help me return to school and pursue my dream of becoming a nurse. Once again, things did not work out as I had hoped.
Over time, my friend called to inform me that she's graduating, to be sincere, I was happy for her and sad for myself. I began feeling deep pain, and I became resentful towards my father for not valuing education or supporting my dream. It hurt to think that things might have been different if I had been given the same opportunity.
The past should remained in the past right. Besides, holding onto anger weighs the heart down. So I gradually let go of the bitterness and resentment, I stopped living in "the life of how I wish." I forgave my father and I promised myself not to allow my past to control my present.
If I could travel through my past, I would want to accomplish certain things before marriage. I would focus on building a career, standing on my feet, securing my education first, in fact making sure my dreams had a strong foundation before stepping into marriage.
This is my journey to my past, I would love to read your own story on this week's topics. Thanks for stopping by @sarahbaby blog.
