Hello Everyone
Welcome to my blog.
I saw ladies of hive week's prompt and got inspired to write in answer to one of the questions.
Everyone has something they would like to change about themselves. It might be physical thing; a character trait ; or anything at all. What is the one thing would choose to change about yourself and why?
I don't think mine is a thing,it seems it is things.
Let me write, maybe it will start to make sense at the end.
One thing I would like to change about myself is the ability to ask a lot of "why's" because I ask a lot of "why" which is induced by the ability of being afraid to leave my comfort zone.
When I finally take the risk to leave my comfort zone and it becomes so challenging at first.
I would cry and feel stupid.
Yes, this will make me to start thinking and feeling that I am insufficient in all ways.
I will start noting on how irrelevant and lots of lacking about my whole life.
I will start feeling inferior and wished I was perfect.
It even surprises me how I can tell all the traits of a perfect person and how great I could have been if I had all those.
And I would channel it to every little error I might encounter at the moment.
I fear a lot to take risks, and it crowns it all with other inferiority mindset and feeling.
I wish I can change worrying and anxiety in my life.
Feeling the need to write, in answer to this question is a part of that trait I wish I can change.
The believe of "a lot needs to be changed in my life" makes it all harder and annoying.
Even though I realize that I am on the wrong part at the moment when the trait drive arise, I find it difficult to pull myself but after some short time, I do pull myself out from that level though.
That's just part of me fighting my demons.
If only I can change it, I wouldn't need to fight it anymore.
Thank you very much for stopping by my entry to ladies of hive community Contest round 243.
Do enjoy the rest of your day.
