The concept of time and it's significance, is quite disturbing. If it was a living being, I would have called it the most cold hearted being to ever walked the earth. Despite it's significance, it is one of the elements humans take for granted. We all act like it is on our side, like it is ours to own. We start making choices with permanent consequences, and yet we notice nothing till years have gone by and there is not left to change.
When I look back at the choices I have made from 5 years ago, some of those choices are getting blurry. Lot of career related choices made in haste, for the sake of survival. Times when it felt like I was making the best decision but, I was only delaying the inevitable.
If I have to travel back 5 years with all I know now, I will definitely do somethings better. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for the lessons learnt from my past mistakes, it is what made me what I'm today but some of the consequences of my past choices, were so traumatic that it travels through time. Leaving behind thoughts of; how I wish I knew better.
The ironic thing about choices is that, we do what we have to with the available information at hand at the moment, but when the consequences of it arrives, it doesn't really matter how much we knew, the pain feels the same regardless.
One of the few choices I will gladly remake, will probably be related to my field of study. I never regretted studying the course I studied but at some point, I realized, I could have acquired more digital skill that would have helped me along the line. Despite having a mindset that is future oriented, at some point, I was satisfied with the skill I had learnt. Little did I know that, knowing too much doesn't hurt.
In today's society, certificates are meaningless. It all depends on knowledge you have acquired and how you practice it. Theoretical knowledge is not enough to get things done because when actions are needed, theories are just theories. Learning had no limit, why didn't I see that? I learnt what I could but left out some important stuff, which would have gotten me some gigs now.
If I was privilege to travel back in time to 2021, I would definitely think less and act more. Expand my areas of focus, it would have been stressful because I had a lot of things I was dealing with back then but with the knowledge of the world I have now, I will have it at the back of my mind; it is worth it.
This write-up was inspired by weekly prompt "Five years back" in hive student connect community.
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