You know, I'd understand if someone told they hate playing games because there's too many of them as right now, the sunk cost fallacy has gotten bigger than I could potently grasp. I hate saying that, I love playing video games. Yet bumps me out of the many I haven't finished.
This has been my issue for the past over 10 years now. I used to easily just finish any title back in my youth. I haven't finished Witcher 3, and the expansions, I left Batman Arkham Knight hanging. Cyberpunk 2077 and the DLC too, Monster Hunter expansion as well, Elden Ring. Like, I keep telling myself I'll finish those, but there's a new game always on the way.
Yeah, I made a picker wheel selection, and this is just less than half of the stuff I could remember. Almost as if I'd wish the earth would spin a bit slower. I'd make room from helping out my mom, taking naps for my health issues, probably even more work.
Who knows, some guy saying video games are longer than they should be is on to something. But we spend our hard-earned money to purchase them, and squeeze more out of every hour. Even noticed how padded video games have gotten, like being stretched out like taffy, just to meet some checkmark about longer hours with pointless stuff to do in them.
There's another endemic, and that is too many indie games. Triple A market just keeps toppling, I mean, who thought spending more and more money would be a bad idea? I'm actually glad, I have moved on from the majority of the franchises, personally even another Resident Evil not for me.
Unless they brought out Code Veronica remake. I missed out on many genres, from strategy games to JRPGs as a kid. I tried my best making up for the lost times, while I missed out on doing important life objectives that I had planned out before my health problems took over.
You know, I've been spending over 20hrs on Helldivers 2 now. This month of January is also packed, you got a crazy Hades clone for waifus, two remaster/remakes of classic Japanese games, a full release of a really good Metroidvania, and dear god, a boomer shooter that looks good, and I want to spread the word even. And on top of other difficulties, it's messing with my head.
I never realized video games FOMO could be an intense mental issue. I have weird OCDs, the past few years, living lethargic and feeling queezy no thanks to my health issues made that harder to keep track. Now realizing all this, it's super difficult to keep up with.
Like I said, I love video games. I don't want to miss out on them. Hell, I'm thinking of getting super hooked on Marvel Rivals. People are playing way more than they have right after the pandemic. I also wish I did with my friends around. So that means what, my goal for finishing single-player games have also created an isolationist trap?
The older days of Counter Strike and online gaming was new to me, yet was like the best period of my time. But I got older too soon, and a lot of people I knew around those communities even moved on. Now, seeing the state of those games, I do want to go back. Feel that rush of successful bomb plants, and maybe played Dota 2 instead of League of Legends. 2 years of that!
I was dealing with the difficulty of being chipped out around the time new GPUs were coming out this month. Like, I should have known better. I blame Intel for the ruse. It all seems like they(AMD) worked together on this. Because I sold my GPU, and wasted 11 days of doing nothing.
Not saying I hate what the modern industry has become, things change. It eventually happens, it's too big of a market to fail, and if there are people doing something wrong, they have to learn and evolve as well. I'm just not sure I can be that guy all the time. Considering around the last few years, I've seen and gone through so much. I just know a lot more.
2025 feels like another cursed year. But my psychological state is slipping now. The cracks are far bigger than I could have seen earlier. Man, I just want to enjoy video games. Not internalize everything all the time. Hopefully god gives me a break. Chin up, I guess? February will be a harder month, so I'll play harder. I just started gym, maybe that'll help.
