It's great to hear your part of the story, bro. Never give up, just keep doing. what you're doing.
Here comes a question in my mind, if any experienced person is reading this post, If i am setting my posts payout 50% power up and 50% to the HBD, am i supporting hive or i have to do a separate power up from that 50% which i take in HBD to prove my loyalty?
I might not be the experienced person you're looking for but in my opinion, 50/50 is the ideal as you're already staking/holding half of your assets to help the platform. People do 100% to increase their stake fast and other peoples might not need the liquid part that bad.
There are peoples who take all 100% for their expanses using services like reward.app or other ones and their are peoples who power down. It's not like they're not loyal, they might just need it in case of emergency. In that case, you're already doing far better than them.