This week's contest is really interesting. In the last few years, I feel like I've been trapped by the words 'this is good for me'. I also ignore what I want. One example is reading novels or light stories.
I still remember clearly, my boss indirectly forbade me from reading novels. Since then, I have tried hard to read books that are in line with my work. But, at the beginning of this year, as well as during my recovery period, I asked myself again, what is my dream.
It turns out, my dream is still the same. I want to be a novelist. For years I ignored it and focused on working. I no longer write and am afraid and reluctant to compete in novels. While I was working, especially the last two years, I felt like something was missing in me. I was not like myself. I saw other people.
This year, after experiencing prolonged fatigue, experiencing the loss of my mother, losing my job and losing myself, now is the time to recover and forgive many people. I am reorganizing myself again. Reorganizing my desires that I have not achieved.
What is my dream, I asked deeply. This year is the year to return to zero in my life. And re-prioritize my life. This recovery period is a period that I like. I can reconnect with myself. Re-see unhealed wounds while re-arranging the future.
What I did. I did a lot of healing therapy, took some short trips, re-met my old community and I did the things I love again. It feels like I'm back to life. I smile again and I find myself again.
What is my dream? I want to study abroad. See you again for new experiences and a new life. And tell those experiences while writing them down into a book. I want to disappear a little from the hustle and bustle of Jakarta. Tired of being chased by other people's dreams.
I like myself and my current activities. While chatting and re-discovering myself. That's all I can tell you about this challenge. See you again.
My name is Nurdiani Latifah. I live in Jakarta – Indonesia, and after 25 years I live in Bandung. I am a media staff at an NGO in Indonesia. I have worked in this institution for almost 2 years on issues of women and peace. I have been a journalist in Bandung for 3 years.
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