Between me and my sister, she is the serious one and it's been like that since childhood. When we were kids, and all of us cousins and me and my sister we would all come together at our granny's place during vacations. Those are fun times because we all cousins would meet and as children all we could think was playing and having fun time.
We all would play together and my sister would be sitting with the elderly lot. I She would not want to join us for play. In front of her we would not dare to do anything that we would not want our elders to know.
This was childhood and so many years have gone by and she is still the same, the stiff person. Now that we are all grown-ups I do make fun of her and tell her that she has missed enjoying her life being so serious all the time. She has improved a little but yet she is the same old person with who one cannot have fun very easily. All my life I have not remembered any moments of fun with her, we have had family gatherings where little bit she lets herself go lose else I see she is always very tightly placed in her own cocoon. I tell her also, does she not feel suffocated with that, and she gives me a stern look.
In our growing up, we have both had a tough childhood and many childhood traumas stay with us, probably that's the reason why she is like this. And she is the elder one so probably things have registered more strongly in her memory then mine. Last week she had a high BP stroke and her eye capillaries burst due to high blood pressure and she has some other health issues as well. When she told me this, it really scared me a lot and my mind instantly went on to these thoughts, probably she has stored so much within her that now it's showing up on her health. I advised her that it's high time she let herself go loose and take life easy.
She does understand this now, but I am hoping that she can change herself, she can bring in more joy into her life and release the past.
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