If it was yesterday I wrote this post, I would have written something entirely different, it would be that I have not gotten physical with anyone for many years and that is because I maintain my boundaries and I even hardly go out or make friends, so no one to provoke me to the extent of getting physical but 24 hours change the story...
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We had a test in school today and we needed a foolscap sheet to do it, one of my close friends was approached by a guy and he asked him for a sheet and he replied that he only had one which he was going to use too... He left and a few minutes later, Someone snatched the paper from him by the time I looked at their side, they were already getting closer physically and since I did not know what really happened between them, I tried to separate them so they wouldn't fight, so I asked my friend what happened and he explained that the guy snatched his sheet of paper, the explanation got me angry and I told the guy to return it but he didn't listen to me as well which further infuriated me, like I was so mad that I pushed him so hard and expected him to raise his hand so we can know the boss but then he was fortunate as he didn't raise a hand.
The other students also joined and asked what happened and when they heard the gist, they blamed the guy as well, it was already time for the test so we just had to forget what happened and enter the hall to do the test, let just say it was the test that made the matter not escalate because I was so mad at the guy and his friends. Most of these bullies believed that they can do anything when they are in a group but fuck that shit!
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Why was I angry more than the victim?
I hate bullies with a passion! cos I felt bullies only do that shit to people weaker than them, when I see people get bullied, I most time ignore or try to settle whatever is causing the issue but it is a different matter when my family or friends are being bullied, it makes me boil with so much anger that I just want to destroy the person.
That was exactly what happened today because I realized they were trying to bully my friend and I won't have that, I even threw caution to the wind that I won't fight in the school cos I don't want to be expelled but when this anger comes, it feels like I am possessed and I don't remember anything anymore.
After the anger subsided, I realized I could have peacefully approached the matter by just separating them and walking my friend to class but I chose violence for violence, I still need to work on my anger issue...
I am still learning how to control it by avoiding things and people that will awaken the demon inside me, so most time I get physical it is usually because of someone close to me that I feel is being cheated or bullied.
I feel we should always stand up for our loved ones and not just be looking when they are being maltreated because this is what is giving the bad eggs confidence to keep bullying the weak ones because others decided to do nothing about it and just let them do it.
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