This gave me chills reading. I was smiling but somehow it didn’t show on my face but I was happy.
I once saw a movie when this guy had a perfect plan of how to rescue someone from a very guarded place. In his head, the whole plan was on point but the only plan that worked was him getting inside. The other plans failed and he almost gave up until he realized that he could actually plan better now because he is now an insider. He knows better how things work than when he was outside only seeing the surface.
Life is really hard sometimes and at that point, you have to be very careful and watchful because you are closer than you think.
!PIMP