and....let me say I admire your desire to learn!!!
there are so many people who can help you to grow here!
and many who can't! lol
the trick is finding genuine people who care and connect and then building a tribe with them!
happy that you're here to learn and grow!!! dont rush anything, it will come slowly
I'm here for 7 years now and I'm still learning things hahaha
it will come...just take baby steps and HAVE FUN while you're doing it !!
steer clear of toxic people also....they will suck your joy out of this so fast !!
hope that helps!!