LOH Contest #243|| Financial Indiscipline.

I believe that every human is beautiful just the way they are. Our skin complexion, eyes, lips, height, and every difference we have make us unique and special, but we usually don't see it that way.

I wish I could make several changes to myself during my teenage years because I got body shame, even though people present it like a joke, but it wasn't a pleasant joke to me. I was very skinny, and it earned me silly names.

It was easy to rebuke my mates calling those names but sadly, some elders also called me these names and my culture forbids rebuking elders, so the best I could do was refuse to answer or just frown. I didn't like those names and wished I could make simple changes to my body like adding some weight to myself from body shaming.

I forget it a lot of the time until someone else calls me those names again, and honestly, it was very annoying. Sometimes, whenever I talk about it, my friends will tell me that I will get bigger in the future, but here I am, still slim, beautiful, and gorgeous.

I have grown past trying to change my body shape because I now understand what it means to love oneself. As a matter of fact, I don't want to add a pinch of weight and don't mind paying to keep this shape forever, I am working really hard to ensure I stay like this.

After reflecting deeply on myself, I think one thing I would like to change about myself is nothing about my appearance. It is my attitude towards spending money. As much as I like to save money, I don't hesitate to spend at the slightest opportunity or reason that comes up.

It's not about me spending lavishly or extravagantly on myself, I love to pamper myself very well, which is fine, but sometimes I don't know how to deny having money when someone asks eveñ for unreasonable things.

I don't want to be stingy, I just want to be careful of how I use my money on things that should be a priority to me. Recently, I made a mistake of lending someone some money to buy a cloth for an event we were both invited to.

We are just mere friends, and after she told me how she can't raise the money for the Aso-ebi(Cultural wears specifically chosen for the event), I just said okay, but when I purchased mine, I didn't feel good about her looking different, so I borrowed her even without her asking.

She agreed to pay me back when she gets paid at the end of the month but it's been two months now. She barely picks up my call.

Financial indiscipline is a good word to describe my habit but I am working on myself gradually. I have set a saving target for myself on a bank app and it's growing gradually. On Hive, I ensure I save my available HBD while I convert my Hive to stake because I won't know when I will use it for something I shouldn't.

I own the images.

I have a lot of things I want to do with my money and being disciplined with my earning will help me a lot.