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Havocs in life enable us to understand the beauty of doubt.
Hello people! Lately, I have been thinking about what life has given to me, and how I have either appreciated it or neglected its gifts. I recall how the absurd situations in life created doubt in my mind and body, which is actually how I figured out the importance of doubt in life, especially as a woman.
As a woman, even living in the 21st century is tough. It is not easy at all, and it never has been. However, we still appreciate how we grew up, and we thank our surroundings that taught us to be strong just because being weak isn't an option. Even though this is very ironic, it is also very sad. Yes, I feel a lot of resentment when I think about the cruelty of how life forced us to be, but at the same time, I get to reflect on how this epidemic of absurd circumstances and very common events has shaped our lives, inevi
There was a time when I used to think that doubt destroys us, but now, this is a time when I reflect and realize that doubt has made me think critically; it is a very basic factor for critical thinking. Patterns and algorithms are very important to understand in the tech world, but interestingly, it is very similar to how we navigate our own lives in this world.
Nonetheless, doubt can kill you and your belief system. However, it is also a fact that if you do not let it ruin you, it will build and shape your observation skills. It makes you capable of critically analyzing any simple or complex situation in life. It helped me, talking from experience. I still remember how my mother used to struggle with money and would express it only when we would ask for some from her. It became so normal for us that we eventually gave up asking her for money. Nonetheless, I never doubted her for three consecutive years.
However, one day, interestingly, she was ranting to me about how one of her brothers was not earning and how she had been helping him with a very good amount of money, making his family live on her income. She mentioned that now that he has started earning, he still demands money from her. After hearing that, I started doubting her and questioned her regarding our financial status. She started to beat around the bush and diverted the conversation back towards her rant. From that day onward, I kept watching her closely and realized that she possessed a lot of money but was always hesitant to give it to us when we asked because she wanted to be the one in control, rather than letting us be the ones to spend it for ourselves.
I do not hold any grudges toward her, but all of this drama could have been avoided if she had just been transparent with us. Now, I have only shared a simple encounter with doubt; I have plenty more in my pocket, and I know that many of you can relate to relationship problems that escalate from a simple doubt into a bigger confession and the uncovering of an event.
I am 26 years old, living a life where my parents were too concerned with building a life for themselves, so I ended up having to fend for myself from the ground up. Sometimes, too much control spoils you so much that you are unable to process how to live by yourself. It has been very tough for me to sort out my financial situation all by myself and get my family to a stable ground, currently. We have seen the worst and are hopeful about living the best. Now, still struggling to figure it all out, is draining.
Life has been too rough, but my instinct of doubt has elevated my situation many a time and helped me climb up. Interestingly, I was able to identify the people whom I can trust and those I cannot, and that helped me learn a lot. I want to end this post by reiterating that perspective always matters, and the best of us are those who are able to use negativity to develop positivity in our lives. The path will be tough and scary, but it is possible to score.
Thank you all for your time. Those of you who are going through a struggling time, I can assure you that you are not alone. Meanwhile, those of you who have exceeded this segment of your life, my best wishes follow.
Have a beautiful day ahead!
