A fear is a negative emotion which results from the unknown or from the experience of the past. Sometimes we fear on doing certain things in life and when we are forced to do that and we do it, we realize that there was nothing to fear and some time we even enjoy that experience. For me I always had water phobia since childhood and would fear even stepping out in rains. I would feel that I would get dragged down in the water. When I was very small, during rains someone would carry me to school because I would refuse to step down and walk.
As I grew up, somewhat this fear started getting less, and I was getting comfortable to walk out in rains and puddles. But still, I had not developed much courage, so I would never go to a water body, like a river or even a swimming pool. Because of this I never learned swimming. When I got married, hubby would encourage me to get into the swimming pool, at times he forced and I had to do it because being with everyone I had to push myself to be a part of them. Also when my son was born, I did not want that my fear would get on to him, so I started getting into swimming pool, with time I actually started enjoying and loving the feeling of being in water.
But still I had never explored a large water body where I would be completely in the water and I wanted to do it. I wanted to break all those last strings of my fear, so last year finally I decided to do a deep diving. So here, I did not venture out in the Sea, I tried at the Aquarium where they have a set up of Diving. This looked safe for me as there were boundaries, and since I do not know swimming, I felt safe doing it here then in the vast ocean.
When I went for this experience the first 15 minutes I was in total hesitation to go down. The instructor tried to keep pushing me down and I would just not let myself get inside. I was very scared thinking what will happen to my breathing, how will my ears react to the flow of water, and all these fears I had in my mind. I came out completely at one point of time and refused to try it, hubby was encouraging me to get back. After some time I gathered back all my courage and then went in again and with the help of the instructor did the dive.
To my surprise, once I was inside the water, I was actually enjoying the feeling, I was no more scared, my breathing was ok, my ears were also doing fine with the pressure, the instructor kept guiding me to go up and down if I felt discomfort. It was a wonderful experience that I felt, then I did not want to come out and wanted to stay in there.
After coming out, I realized that my fear had no meaning, it was just the fear of the unknown feeling and that's what kept me away for such a long time in life. On the other side of the fear can be lot of things like happiness, satisfaction, fulfillment and joy. But the thing is to take that step to over come our fears. Thank god I did that and now I do not fear water at all.
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