Good day everyone! I was very sad and disappointed today. Like I was trying my best to make my daughter healthy for the incoming operation but I was failed to do so. Last night the doctor who will perform the surgery called us that she will now undergo the pedia clearance. So we went to the public center first to have consultation because public centers are free. I want to make sure first she's doing better before going to the private pediatrician. But I was so shocked to hear that she has problems in the lungs. Her lungs has phlegm that's why she need to undergo antibiotics. Luckily some of the medicine are free and only one is needed to buy at the pharmacy.
Going home I was very upset and sad about it. It took one week to have full recovery but still I have to be positive that everything will be fine. And after three days we went to the private pediatrician and she undergo x-ray and still had pneumonia. I cried at the hospital because I knew she can't perform the surgery. She has another set of medicine again. These are all her medicine for one week including the vitamins. When I got home, I cried and slept and I woke up it's already evening and my husband actually wake me up to ask for what's dinner.
When I'm sad I will cook my favorite food or my comfort food. This is lomi, he cooked it for me. I was happy then to eat and looking at my daughter she is very fine but after x-ray she had pneumonia. I didn't expect it. She eats very well and plays too.
After dinner my husband invited my friend to come over. She is the wife of my husband's cousin. So I have someone to talk to and enjoy the night because we will be heading back to Camiguin next week probably. She loves singing so we had videoke that night.
I didn't like to sing tonight because I have a very heavy heart so I just let my friend sing and I carry her baby. My husband teases me he has a baby too which is the rooster. He will be missing that rooster too that's why he always carry it sometime.
After everything that happens, I can really say if it's not your time, it's not yet the perfect time. I was sad and disappointed because this is pure 6th attempt to undergo oedia clearance for an operation and we failed for the sixth time. It was upsetting but I have to accept it maybe my daughter's health is not yet ready for that. So I have to accept it fully and prepare for the next schedule.
That's all about my story for today's blog. It's sad and it teaches me to accept the real thing happening around. I will try again next schedule maybe November or December. This is a lesson in life to be perseverance on everything. Someday this is a great memory of me as a mother that me and my daughter had a good fight!
