Dangerous thought 💭 LOH#243

in #ladiesofhive6 days ago

Everyone has something that they'd like to change about themselves. It might be a physical thing, a character trait, or anything at all. What is the one thing you could choose to change about yourself, and why?

Good day, beautiful ladies and gentlemen. This is something I have battled with, and I wish and pray that God help me overcome and change it for me

So there's this thing about me that I feel is dangerous, and I wish to change it. I have this unfriendly thought sometimes: if I'm using a knife 🗡️ and maybe my husband or my siblings are around the house, I do feel like stabbing them to death 🥹.

Don't get me wrong, please; my husband is a very sweet soul, and my siblings also didn't wrong me in anyway. but this spirit in me keeps telling me sometimes to stab my husband, my kids or anyone around. Sometimes if I'm heating water for their bath and maybe the water is boiling, I could feel like pouring it on them.

Immediately I could gain myself and reject that thought. Sometimes if I want to go out to get something, I could be feeling like this might be my last day; maybe something bad might happen to me, and I might die before returning home.

After that thought, I could reject and rebuke the evil thought. I'm not in any secret society or any cult group, please. This happened anytime I'm about to do something carrying hot water or a knife 🗡️, or if I I'm going out.

I seriously need prayer, guys. Please help pray for me. 🥹 It's not funny anymore. This is my battle, and I want and wish to change and overcome it. I'm scared of sharing it with my husband or siblings or anybody at all; I don't want them to think otherwise. No one knows about this. It my first time of sharing it. Please don't judge me.Thank you for reading through. Pray for me.

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Oh my goodness. I can relate to such dangerous thoughts. I had moments where I thought of using the knife on myself and that was just horrible indeed. And I even used to think about getting run over by the vehicles while crossing the street on a pedestrian lane! Like wth, intrusive thoughts are the worst!!!

How did I get rid of such? Well as a Catholic I went and prayed then read an Examination of Conscience online and repented of my sins back in 2023, including those evil thoughts and even the occult practices I did. I listed everything down after examining my conscience and went to confession to clean up my soul.

We have to nip it in the bud as soon as such thoughts become frequent because it's one of the signs you're "secretly" going the wrong way. I didn't realize what was happening but thank God for my guardian angel I believe it helped me a lot in hitting the brakes and repenting otherwise it's gonna be downhill from there. Been doing frequent confession and daily prayers (rosary, Divine Mercy chaplet, etc.) since then to keep such thoughts away so if you're Catholic you can do it too! 🙏

God bless you and your family!

Thank you very much, you understood me and I'm grateful. I started praying and fasting some weeks ago. Hoping that everything goes away. Thank you for the words of encouragement and for dropping by.Hugs 🤗 my darling 💕.

Awesome. Good to know you've started praying and fasting. A daily prayer life indeed helps a lot! ♥️🙏


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