Painful you lost your cousin and friend, the latter had used you after getting much from you. Nonetheless, it's good you realized the need to grow your inner self beyond the physical.
Glad to know you freed yourself despite the inner hurts. I have met a couple of people who told me they'll leave soon, even for no obvious reasons, perhaps they had inner battles also.

It was good you were able to identify the core of the problem and that aided your recuperation.