change they say, it's the only constant thing. Sometimes, we look at ourselves and realized some things are not the same as they used to be. These are changes that took place unconsciously. There some other changes we make in our lives consciously and deliberately, as a result of self evaluation. This kind of changes that are intentional are sometimes not easy to result to, but as they say, conscious effort could bring desired result.
As a person, I love people and always want everyone around me to be fine. I have some children, adults around and also some aged people I take care of. Most of them are not related to me by blood but I will call them street family. I love them so much and really care about them. While this is not bad at all. My worries and anxiety about their welfarism was to the extreme and started eating me up. I worry so much about people, forgetting that it is God that oversees the affairs of men. I never knew too much worries and anxiety could affect our both physical and mental health until I started carrying out some self assessment. Then it dawn on me how much I have abandoned myself, cluttered my mental space while being anxious of other people. Oh, I took a mirror and then realised how frail and unkempt I looked, my bones were out and I was almost losing it. At this point, it was obvious that transformation was needed. A change has to occur.
It's so incredible how I forget myself while running helter skelter to care for others. I hardly get myself food supplement, provisions but while visiting people, I was always going with a lot of goodies. I don't know if there are people like that or if it's only me. I organize and celebrate birthdays for people but I hardly celebrate mine. I could count the number of times I entered boutique to buy clothes for myself. I do it mostly for others while I cluttered my own wardrobe with over used clothes.
Hence, my transformation began from practicing self-care. This transformation does not mean I become selfish or abandon those I care about but it means I now include caring and looking after myself also while doing it for others. Oh! It has brought about a great changes. I'm now making do with what I have to put smiles on everyone's face including myself, an idea I got from minimalist lifestyle.
The sky is wide enough for thousands of birds to fly without affecting one another. The transformation makes me realize we can really make others happy without losing our own happiness.In fact, I'm a changed person now and do it better.
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