Sadly it's the lack of purpose in life. It always starts in you if you grow your personal development things will be better for you. I'm almost 2 months on Hive this past week I've learned so much! I think we touched this on your podcast I forgot I'm old😀.I'm not an expert on giving advice but I can try. On day one you joined Hive just reflect back did you grow? Did you learned? Do you have more value? If most of the answer is no go to the mirror and say I will change now!