I am still trying to believe that I have come into the world fully by making decisions on my own, taking some steps alone and then trying to make meaning to lots of things that surround me. These last two weeks had taken a great toll on me and I just wished to return to being a baby where I do not need to worry about anything other than sleeping and eating while also playing my time with kids of my age outside. I'm still trying to figure a lot of things out, and realising that life keeps going and that human beings keep growing makes me cringe 😬
Two weeks ago, I got to the state where I was posted and it took a while to get accommodation as everyone kept giving me a date — "There will be an available apartment by the end of January because that is the time most tenants would be packing out", they all keep telling me. By that time, I was living with a couple who, from my observation were still new in the journey of marriage and they had this little girl about a year old.
There is something about me and that is my inability to feel comfortable living with someone especially a stranger whom I do not know from Adam. These couple were introduced to me by my aunt's neighbour and since they were in the same state where I was posted, it was an opportunity to stay with them pending the time I would get an accommodation. To be honest, the husband tried his best to help out with my accommodation.
There was a day I went to buy something from a woman who sells provisions just adjacent to their house, the woman asked if I was the one who needed a self-contained apartment which I replied positively. She told me how the husband had been trying to get a place for me and the way she emphasised the good efforts of the man, I knew the man tried a lot for me.
After a week and some days of living with this family which seemed uncomfortable for me as I wasn't free to move around. I became fond of the room they gave me and most times when they call me to come over to the parlour, I feel reluctant and shy to go but to be confined in the little space I was given. I became acquainted with their little daughter who also had an interest in me as I loved to give her my phone to watch her favourite video — Cocomelon.
Finally, I got my apartment and was told to move in any time I wanted. That made me happy because I would be on my own with my freedom and privacy. The next day, I went to clean the whole place up on the 16th which was on Tuesday. I did half of the work while postponing the rest to the next day after work hour. It was a tough experience for me as I have come to accept the fact that no one will come to help me unless I ask for it and that is only when I have found someone. I knew nobody in the state and it made the task tedious and stressful for me.
These past few days have taken my time away from Hive and I only push myself in making daily posts while I try to reply to comments too. I don't want this to be like this though because I love it when I return something done to me back in the best way I can.
I travelled to my previous place to pack my stuff to where I am and the journey has been a hell of stress for me. The process of relocating from one place to another is hard and it's making me feel tired and want to get sick which I hope not to. All I want right now is to get settled fully so I can resume my activity on Hive. I have missed commenting and I am hoping next week will be different as I will have settled down and fixed all that needs to be fixed.
This is just like a rant post about how things are for me and just needed a safe place to share my worries and life's hustle and Hive is my best place to do that 😞
Thanks for your time reading. Looking forward to your interaction.
