I wish I could without fear

in HiveGhana11 months ago

Fear is a killer, sometimes the fear of things we are scared of kills faster than those things themselves, but why are we always afraid? I've asked myself countless times for the reasons why I am afraid of these things yet I couldn't give myself a convincing answer. There are times I tried to let go of my fears and do these things I am afraid of but I still couldn't do it because the fears overwhelm me. When I saw this prompt, I was happy because it would help me share my fears and get tips from other writers on how I can overcome these fears.

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I have lots of fears and at times I wonder why I'm so afraid of virtually everything, I am afraid of driving a car even though I do wish to drive just as normal ladies of my age do. Then one day, I was challenged by a young boy whom I saw driving, it was then I decided to put my fear of driving behind me. I learned how to drive and I succeeded though I still feel somehow scared when driving but I know with time I will overcome that too.

WHAT WOULD I DO IF I WEREN'T AFRAID

The first thing I would do if I weren't afraid is go out at night, I have this phobia for darkness. I hate going out at night, once it's 7 pm, going out at night seems like a punishment or a burden to me. I feel afraid unnecessarily, the fear of getting hurt or being in one danger or the other. Some places become more beautiful and more fun to visit at night but unfortunately, I don't have the guts to experience the beauty and the fun because of the fear of the unknown. I tried to overcome this fear some time ago but unfortunately, now I still find it very difficult to go out at night. There was a time when a friend invited me to hang out at night and I couldn't attend because of my fear, though I do feel sad because I wanted to attend but I couldn't.

Secondly, if I weren't afraid, I would love to swim. I don't go near large amounts of water at all and my fear of water started at a very young age when one of my uncles drowned on the beach at Lagos state. The person who came to break the news to my parents then said it in a way as if water is an enemy to humans. I was sitting in the sitting room that afternoon and since then I developed this fear. I don't fetch well because I have negative thoughts of falling into the well and getting drowned. I don't visit the swimming pool, no matter how hard you try to convince me to go swimming, I will never yield and that's because I have a phobia for water.

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Thirdly, if I weren't afraid, I would love to go for a bungee jump, I am so afraid of heights. I don't like going to a height that is far from the ground, I don't know what constituted this fear but I had it. Recently when I resumed back to school, my class was at the top of 3 three-storey building, looking down felt like I wanted to fall. I imagine things that are way far beyond normal, I don't want to have this fear anymore but I don't know how to. I don't know how I'm going to compose myself when I finally get the chance to travel out of the country on a plane at the top which is very far to the ground. I love the way I feel when I see people go bungee jump, I wanted to try it too but unfortunately I can't because of my fear of heights.

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Wow, it's actually ironic to see your fear for darkness. I on the other hand prefer to walk in the darkness than to walk in broad day light. I prefer less attention though.

Bungee jump seems like a fun thing to do. Sadly, our fear for heights inhibits this fun..

I don't know how to overcome these fears.