We all know the fastest way to pass an information to someone anywhere in the world is through smartphone, especially phone call, though internet is also the means of passing information fast, infact that's what I preferred and what I used most times, but knowing fully well that not everybody will be on internet or social media especially does that doesn't have interest or knowledge about internet. To those kind of people how do we deal with them and that's where the problem is for me...
This is one the bad habit I cultivated along time ago which I always find it difficult to do, sending information to people through phone calls as always be my main problem for a long time. Even though i used two different phones, but yet I still find it difficult to call people. Not that I don't like to call, but it's because I'm not used to calling people, even my own parents do complain about this for a long time, at first my parents thought I was doing this intentional, but later they got to know that it's my habit already, samething happens to all my friends outside there, they always complain I don't like to call, infact some of them do think I'm kind of arrogant on
my own which is not like that.
This habit has really spoilt many things in my entire life, I just couldn't know how to fix this, I've tried many times in fixing this, but I always end up failing, to the extend that it has distroyed many of my relationships have had in the past and currently. We all know relationships is not completed when constant conversations is lacking in it...My experience in the past concerning this my poor habit is bad, though I'm not giving up on myself, but I'm trying hard to fix this which I belief it will surely happen very soon. In my previous relationships, my partner always see me as if I'm not caring, selfish and never bothered, and I have nothing to say to this because that is exactly who I am and what is happening presently in my life.
The truth is I always belief just by chatting through social media is enough to handle everything, but it doesn't work
that way. What I do is that, I'll rather chat you on social media like WhatsApp, Facebook than calling you to check up on you. I thought by doing this it can handle everything but I'm always disappointed with how I later do end up... I really do wish to be able to make phone calls have a good conversation with someone on phone but it just not working for me because it's not in my system. Sometimes I can be alone for more than 2months without calling my parents and it won't bothered me... I don't feel guilty about it because I don't see it as a bad thing. And this took me a very long time to realize that I wasn't doing the right thing.
I'm not saying I have fixed this yet because it has already become my habit and anything that become your habit it's always hard to leave, but I'm seriously controlling and working on myself in this part. I belief I'll surely change if I didn't stop disciplining myself on this. This is the most crucial one thing that I find
difficult to do!!!
