I was probably in third grade then. I still remember that day. I used to visit the village house when I got school holidays. It was nice to visit the village house when the holidays came. One Thursday we all went to the village house. And the results of the SSC exam were supposed to be published on that Thursday afternoon. Everyone was waiting to see the results. Some of the neighbors took the test. So everyone was waiting for the results to be published. At that time information technology was not so advanced. Then the results were given on the notice board of the school. And everyone used to go to that notice board and see their results. I still remember that day. Maya Apu's house is a little far from my village house. Maya Apura had three girlfriends. Script, Maya and Seema.
I saw them many times when they all went to school together. Maya Apu was very good in studies. His intelligence was also much better than the other two. And Maya Apu always had good results. Maya Apu's roll was 3. Everyone was waiting for afternoon. Everyone will get the results in the afternoon. At that time a different mood could be found around. Many people were very afraid. Many people were waiting for good results. As it was quite late to see the results, everyone waited. Similarly Maya Apu was waiting for her result. Maya Apu's father went to school to check her results. But even after a long delay, Maya Apu's father was not coming back from there. Suddenly Maya Apu's father returned home. Seeing his face, no one dared to say anything. Then Maya Apu went to tell her something, then Maya Apu's father started crying.
Maya Apu could not understand what happened. After that Lipi Apu and Seema Apu came to Maya Apu's house. Then they said that Maya Apu has failed in one matter. Hearing this, Maya Apu closed the door of that room and did not open the door. Maya Apu did not come out of the house even after many calls. Now Maya Apu's father asks Maya Apu to open the door. Even then Maya Apu does not open the door. The night became heavy. But still the door of Maya Apu's room is closed. Many of them came and went to their homes. Many people even heard harsh words. It is natural that if you do not study, you will be unsuccessful. These words may have hurt Maya Apu very much. Maya Apu could not control herself anymore.
Maya Apu cried all night long. The surrounding environment was heavy with the sound of Maya Apu's cry. I still remember that day. Maya was very sad to see her suffering. Maybe I didn't understand something like that then. But those memories are still remembered. He spent the whole night in a lot of trouble. Screamed several times even in sleep. Maya did not wake up again. When the morning rolled around and it was almost noon, Maya Apu's mother was repeatedly calling Maya Apu. When she went inside and held Maya Apu's hands, she realized that Maya Apu is no longer in this world. He killed himself by eating the pesticide in the house.
Maya Apu put an end to everyone's complaints and insults. Maybe she had a lot of pain in her mind. But could not say anything to anyone. Maya Apu herself felt very bad about the bad results. The girl could not control herself anymore when the neighbors were listening to her. Maybe I didn't understand something like that then. But now I understand that feeling. When a man is wounded, if he can be wounded again, he is completely wounded. And the wounded man loses the will to live. Maybe the people around him could have kept him alive. Could encourage him. But without doing that, everyone did not let him listen to harsh words. Losing her honor, the girl ended herself. There are many Maya Apu in our society who can't say anything to anyone. Nor can protest. Only his life proves that he was not wrong.