You know that song where they sand "Adulthood na scam of you no get na you Sabi, you have to hustle 24/7 to make a living, nobody go ask if you don chop, nobody go send you free money, if you no get na you Sabi, adulthood na scam" like Teni understood what it meant to enter adulthood newly and your thoughts might be "finally the hour has come", only for you to meet reality contradicting with your pulled up expectations of what been an independent grown up means, I won't lie or pretend I always looked up to my 20s or should I even say 18s where I would be alittle bit grown to start exploiting what I saw others exploiting, the story long but let's just get a bit of it, shall we?
I surely had those days when all I did was to think what it felt like to be grown up, at those moments I wished time could just fly not just hurry because hurry seems to slow for me to the extent where I would just sit and start day dreaming or would I say imagine me been in that state and the things I would be doing, like it was just crazy and the only thing that could drag me out of that smiley faces with a closed eyes is reality, I would be thinking about how I wouldn't wash my plates for some days, how I would go out for hours and come back when I like it, how I will buy anything I want without questioning, how I would eat anything I want without having to repeat food and stuff like that, how I would wear what I want to wear to my satisfaction without having someone telling me to go and change it, like only if someone told me that it wasn't how it looked or perhaps my mother told me but I thought it was just her doing her normal babbling that was itching to my ears.
_How is it going now? Well that's a thoughtful question if you ask me because the me now is quiet different from the me that entered adulthood, there's alot of changes because at first when I became an adult I wished to go back to being a child because it was too demanding of me, I cried atimes or laughed it out like a crazy person but I definitely got used to it, I just had to find my balance, what works for me? Where I can find satisfaction atleast? I think that was how I started finding my balance, and I started finding joy in the things I did which was where my excitement began.
I would say mine is like mood swings or a flow, one minute I am excited the other I am just there thinking of those days I was being fed and nurtured under my father's roof, but it isn't bad the way it was painted I think adulthood is a good stage in one's life where you find purpose, direction, meaning to life, sense of belonging and many more that's only if you find you in the process, some get lost and keep wandering, some struggling finding their identity but trust me finding you in all this would be the best.
Thank you very plenty, one love 😘.
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