Ok, there comes a time when we are at that point of reflection where you are, whatever has happened in our innocent lives. Then it is time to look for solutions to heal within. That is the difficult path that we have to face when we wake up (unfortunately not all of us wake up), but it is what is necessary, what we have to do, what will set us free. Many of our body's illnesses have to do with the mismanagement of emotions, did you know that? And did you know that every person who comes into your life acts as a mirror for you to look at yourself and see what you like and don't like about yourself? Believe me, this path of healing is very difficult. The important thing is to recognise and find the problems, and also to accept our shadows.
Meditation, breathing, and living in the present are good for that. To understand that love starts from oneself and that if we don't love ourselves, no one else will.
My awakening began to happen when I looked back and saw repetitive patterns in terms of people coming into my life, situations related to jobs and money, attachments and many other things. The Universe makes you go through the same things over and over again to learn. It doesn't do it out of spite, it does it for your own good. Because the bottom line is that life is about evolving.
It takes study, it takes patience and it takes choices. The hardest part is letting go.