Writing can be a good therapy to get things out of your chest!
I totally understand you feelings and I relate a lot with them. My self esteem is nothing that I'm proud of, you can say it... But one thing is certain: "I'll never drop the towel".
Please continue to share with us your feelings, impression, even that it seem repetitive like you mentioned.
Making a blog if for sure something that helps me connect with other, myself, and the surroundings.
Making one post by day, is giving me some light about the journey that I proposed myself to walk!
Be brave!
And thank you for your sharing, Eliana!