As long as you will be working for somebody else, especially corporations,you will always be not free,even if ur the CEO!
That's the part that you haven't tried to change... because you feel secure with a shit pay but no risc! I don't know you,but to me it feels like you are the kind of person that can say, stuff...like you can look at something,then you could elaborate.. (I can't). Ever thought of starting a UTube vlog chanel? It will give you more freedom,I'll support you 2.