Even though I have been going through a lot mentally, I didn't lose my hope and faith in getting better and the recovery process.

This is such a beautiful relief to read. I worry about you, but I also know you are strong and I trust that strength.

Recently I used clicker training to teach Pilot how to wake me up during a nightmare. He does the "trick" really well, lol. I lay down and thrash and moan and he gleefully launches himself onto my stomach to get the treat. I don't know yet if I actually trained him to wake me during a real nightmare because I haven't had the thrash-and-moan kind in a while, but the idea is comforting. Mostly it's just cute and roller-coaster fun anticipating him jumping on me when I fake the nightmare. I think in real life he's like, dude, I'm trying to sleep here!