My dear, there's no need for the pressure, don't think about what you haven't achieved.. appreciate the ones you already have.. that alone is a blessing... Even the ones you look at might even be going through worse than you...only if you knew what's beneath the facade .. you're doing well.. at least you even have a goal set and a path to follow.. probably the resources is what you're waiting for.. this is something and we'll all get there someday with resilience.