The most constant thing in a human life is change, as we live and strive for survival, we leave behind who we used to be. It doesn't really matter if it is/was intentional or not, it is just the way the world works. Everyday we face all kinds of battle, no matter the outcome, it changes something in us, either for the better or worst. Either of which it is, we become a little different from the person we used to be yesterday.
Throughout the days of my life, I have always been overwhelmed by the thought of the uncertainties of the future. Every single moment of my life, I go through series of self evaluation, looking for ways to become a better version of myself in order to conform with my new reality. I have never thought of myself as someone perfect, I strongly believe I'm a work in progress.
The more I live the more I learn, the more knowledgeable I become. So when I look back at who I used to be fifteen years ago, all I do is smile. Let me tell you a little joke. Few days ago, I was searching through my blog post for a content I wrote some months ago. The reason is quite simple, for those that are consistent with my blog post are aware that I write on varieties of topics and there are times I write about business strategies.
Despite being the author of the post, overtime I realise there are times I forget some ideas I once birthed and lucky for me, my blog serves as a backup for those Ideas. Reading the post I once wrote is one of the best ways I remind myself of some ideas I once had, which is one of the reasons behind the pinned post on my blog.
While searching for a post I once wrote, I came across a post I wrote about 4 years ago, reading through the post and looking at the markdown usage, I was like; I can't believe I edited this. The funny part was that, in those days when I wrote that post, that must have been the best I could have done but now, I'm more experienced, which has granted me the privilege of seeing cracks in what used to be a perfect piece.
In the same vein, when I look back fifteen to twenty years and think about who I used to be, a lot has changed in ways I can't even attempt to describe with words. My personal growth is my greatest mission and every time I breathe, I'm a new person. I might not remember all about who I used to be but there was something I know I was, it would be naive.
My perspective of the world was just black and white, right and wrong, nothing else exist in-between. I wasn't really capable of compromising regardless of the situation but gradually I started to find myself in difficult situations when had to make difficult choices. In situations when I had to pick between evil and a greater evil. Then I realised nothing is as plain as I think it was, there are things that exist in this world that aren't known to many.
It is always very easy to judge others till we find ourselves in their shoes, then we would realise, we are just exactly the same as those we criticize. In that moment, you would realise there is no such thing as bad people, it is situation that creates this people and so we judged them still.
The truth is, if I were to meet who I used to be, we would pass by without knowing. A lot has changed about me over the years and the change is still occuring. I can't really state that the change in my life begin at a specific point, I just know that the current "me" is a sum of experience I have endured and this is the one thing the previous me haven't experienced but if there was one thing past "me" and the present "me" have in common is our undying passion for justice and unhinged drive to achieve any objectives we set our minds on.
This write-up was inspired by weekly featured content titled Who are you in hive learners community.
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