My feelings are been played with and I have been played like a fool. I fell into your trap and you previewed the other version of me.
All I wanted is to make me happy at all means but instead you took me for a fool. It so sad to have this pain you have made me feel. I can not bear this no more but to just cut the relation I had with you by all means. I missed the emotions I use to have; you have changed me from myself and you make me act so different like a stranger. My worst pains come from you every day; I try to act matured and overlook the words you input into my head and actions you hurt me with regretting I listened to you. I am so sad to say this but it is better to give all my attention to an action than to share the moment with you because you would never know my worth.
Every night, I cry within me trying to find the voices to cheer me up because the darkness you have created closes up and consume me day by day. Everytime I think of the pain you have caused I keep hating my self why I met you and made the friendship between us happen. I could climb the mountains to find the cure to my ailments just to be happy and filled within me but you always find a way to get me trapped. I try to feel strong with you by my side. Now you have hurt me and made me sad I believing I have to sustain my mind on my own.
All I wanted was to create the best history but instead you got them destroyed with your words. I can't take it no more you just have to take your stand and let me be when I am gone. Stop blaming me for your wrongs I haven't done anything wrong with my decisions. Stop comparing me to my past I am the present; I try to live the best present day with you struggle out the challenges of the day but instead you doubled the burden on me. I don't care anymore; I would get to my goals because thats the best fulfillment I would ever get.
Now that you have proven to be my trigger of sadness; I have decided to leave you and get an alternative motivation to keep me moving. The cycle between us have been broken now all the slow motion running inside my head can not be controlled anymore. All I have done is to make things better but you have decided to make me regret it all.
You have made me realise you are a burden to my life when I think of you everyday and I can not move on without you. Early in the morning, you re-occur to me but the best decisions are things to do that would not make you drag me back for achieving all the options I have in my mind. Therefore I have decided to always;
- Clean and listen to music.
- Write about how you make me sad and how to avoid you.
- Ask for help when I can not handle you anymore.
- Try to help others not feel the pain you create in me.
- Leave the position you caught my attention to play with my emotions.
- Cry and eat much chocolates with some nice music.
When I get the pains you give me, all I can do right now is sleep and forget you ever existed that day. Without your presence, my emotions can not be played with and I would always have a way forward. Giving you no room to have a part of my life is the best feeling man can ever find because all you would do is lost me inside my own mind and thoughts. I would always see you has an opportunity to have the best sleep I can get for the night and start my day again refreshed and happy without you in my life then i can actually focus.
A short letter to what Sadness does to us and how we can out run it.
#sadness would always keep you lost in your mind and give you no reason to have a way forward. This way it has the opportunity to play around with your feelings and trust me you would not be able to think straight.