I wasn't sure you'd read this post but knew if you did that it would probably cut close to the bone.
That image you have, I have similar of my mum who died very badly and I'll never be able to shake those images loose from my mind. I guess that's why I focus on the lives of those who depart rather than their deaths - I've seen some bad ones and I'd rather remember the good about that person.
I know it'll be difficult for you still, that may fade slightly over time but will never leave you.