Have you ever tried keeping items from the previous years that hold a special meaning in your life? Or, hanging unto things that you think are important then but over the years became irrelevant?
Until a few hours ago, I did not even realize that I had been holding unto them. Mine were mostly paperworks from whence I started here. Some were letter of offers, school works, assessments, reminders of my earlier life here. In a way, they tell the story on the hurts, struggles, hopes and fears I had had then. While they are not blatantly written over the pages, looking through them reminded me of those difficult years and, I wondered: when did it stopped hurting? How was able to go through that?
For the past few weeks, all I had been doing was getting rid of all the things that are too old, damaged/ torn or, I do not need anymore. I feel that I am growing into the woman I have always been dreaming and, there is no space for anything else in the past. My present self is filling me so much. The promise of the future, the things I wanted to do, the things I wanted to experience, they are all pushing my past away.
I shredded the whole lot. I did went through it one more time- a last minute way for me to decide if I would still be needing them in a anyway. Then, off to the shredder.
I took the paper in the recycling bin.As I walked back to my flat, I felt great. I felt like I am walking from my past- finally free to embrace the present and the future.
Wes & Grindan
