Hi Sisi ❤️🤗, The truth is that even I go through a lot so there's nothing to be ashamed of. I wanted to scroll past without leaving a comment because you said you didn't want me to take this the wrong way but here I am 😁...

We're all humans, even tho we're siblings, we have our own personal struggles that were ashamed to share with our siblings coz they'll feel bad. It's normal to feel that way....

Sometimes leaving your comfort zone is the first step. Life is beautiful, you're the painter, pick any colour you want and paint, if it turns out bad, pick another colour and make something good out of it. You don't have to be sad all because you feel the painting is ruined and would've been better if you didn't use brown or because you thought the painting would've been better if you used the colour brown. You don't have brown so use pink.
All I'm saying is that you shouldn't dwell on the past but focus on what you have, and make the most out of it.
!lady