Having to reflect and recall all the things you did or didn't do right can be really devastating or reassuring, it depends.
Not passing your exams earlier enough is still not cool too. But I'm pretty sure your result will still be great.Lol. Hope you smiled.

Concerning learning some certain programming on the net. I think you can still achieve that part of your dream, if you still can.

Your young self is beautiful and you still do, girl.

Have a beautiful day ahead.😊🤗