As a mother who has experienced the loss of a child, the emotional burden is almost indescribable. It feels as if we are carrying a heavy load deep within our hearts @sarimanok. Raising a son with physical and intellectual challenges for twenty-four years has been an extraordinary journey. The round-the-clock care and unwavering commitment have molded me into a resilient individual. The doctor even affectionately referred to me as Wonder Woman, having witnessed the arduous path that CJ and I navigated together.

While I believe CJ would wish for my happiness now that I am free from the physical and mental strains, the lingering pain of his absence is profound. Immersing myself in work helps to alleviate some of the inner turmoil, and I am grateful for the supportive presence of my understanding bosses, who always manage to lift my spirits during moments of sorrow.

I hold onto the hope that one day I, too, will dream of CJ. Since his passing, I haven't had the privilege of dreaming about him, and I find myself envious of your ability to do so.