I’m so sorry about CJ. I’m really glad that he had profound impact on friends and family whiles he was here. That means even though he’s physically gone, he’ll never be forgotten. I understand why you felt guilty at that time you smiled but I know that he was so happy to see his mother’s beautiful smile once again.
Even though he faced physical and intellectual challenges, he had a significant impact on my family, friends, and even people I don't personally know. It was very difficult for me when people asked how I was doing after my son's passing. Some even told me to be happy because my son is now in the loving arms of our Creator. I know CJ would want to see me happy, and I shouldn't feel guilty. You're right about that. Thank you for your kind words, @abenad. ❤️