Sometimes giving up is indeed what we need. Yes, I know you may not agree with me and those who want to always be positive and take the winning side of life never to give up because winners never quit and quitters never win won’t agree. We all have said that one time or the other but believe me, sometimes all you need is to give up, maybe or maybe not depending on the angle or the situation of things you are in.
A little throw back on a time when giving up saved me. Some years ago, I was in a relationship with this guy and ofcourse he was the best thing that ever happened to me. I was inlove with him and initially things were all going on well until ofcourse life happened and before you know it, everything began to deteriorate.
The thing here is that I can’t place my hands on what I did to cause him to change but over time what was once a beautiful relationship turned to a toxic house. I was in a toxic relationship and I tried very hard to make sure it worked out. I couldn’t imagine living without him.
As time went on, the toxicity of the relationship increased by the day, it was time for me to give up. He was sleeping around and lying as if his breath depended on it. I still loved him but because of the trauma I was passing through, I was becoming suicidal. I was having suicidal flashes especially anytime I go to take my bath.
I told myself that if I continue pushing and hoping that this relationship would get better, that I would end up dying. I had to give up. I packed my stuffs and left.
I didn’t regret my decision to leave. Infact it was one of the best decisions I have made in my life. It wasn’t easy for me, I had to start all over again. At first I cried and cried for days and even months but my decision to leave was me discovering myself again. I didn’t regret it. It was freedom for me. A new dawn actually.
If I had the opportunity, J would never go back to that relationship not in my life time. I wonder what would have become of me if I didn’t give up on that relationship. By now I would have probably been a shadow of myself. Or worse still I would have been thrown out after having the worst maltreatment of my life. Sometimes, all we really need is to give up.
Then, the Talk of plenty failure simply reminds me of my university school days. Well, I think I am an intelligent student but what do you do when you applied for nursing and you are given chemistry to read. What’s the relationship between the two and then you are already tired of staying at home and then decided to go read the chemistry like that but it’s all sounding like Greek.
Well, the result was plenty failure. I had plenty F’s in school because I didn’t like the course I was studying and I obviously didn’t put in my best in
My Studies. By the time I got to final year, I was overwhelmed with plenty Fs but one thing that helped me keep moving and had to brace up and face my failure was the fact that my dad was late and my cousin was the one training me in school. I knew that a spill over would be expensive to have. Who would pay the fees?
He was managing to train me in school how much more when I now have an extra year. I had to pray for God to help me and I had to study extra hard to clear my papers and God helped me. My motivating factor was the fact that I knew I can’t afford to fail because he wouldn’t even hear it.
If I hadn’t summoned the courage to go the extra mile and pass my exams, maybe I would have been a school dropout. Things could have gotten out do hand. I would have sabotaged the privilege given to me and I don’t know how it would be interpreted. I may have been counted as being ungrateful and lazy but I’m glad that was able to face my failures and excel.
Finally on hive blockchain, I am still a newbie and am trying to engage and learn as much as I can. My journey has been full of ups and down, lows and highs but I am grateful for the gift of some good senior hivians who have gone ahead of me to help me in my short stay here.
Well, I’d like to engage in more power ups to build my hive power but right now am afraid to actually do that for now. I have been powering up at least one hive ever since this month of May . My rent is due by next month and I would have to take from some of my resources here to support the payment of my rent. That has been my only restriction from powering up more. After paying my rent, I’d love to flex my muscles more on seeing my hive power grow
The two experiences I had about giving up and facing my failures have been life impacting. I believe we all deserve to be loved and treated with utmost respect, if for any reason you find yourself in a situation that’s not healthy, please be free to give up on such situations and find something healthier. I learnt that love should be reciprocal and not toxic.
Secondly, I learnt that no about of failure would be able to deter a determined soul. No matter how you think you have failed, never despair, you can still make something beautiful out of that situation. Failure of a part of life. We don’t fail, we either win or learn.
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