Sadly, I have questioned God. No. I questioned if he really existed because the way I was sinking felt like he didn’t. I can relate to everything you wrote here. I have felt the anger, the pain and the doubt that comes with fear. I have felt anger at myself for not being enough, not doing enough…. So it’s all okay.

Regarding your mom, I have said worse to mine and instantly regret it. I am working on that part of me … but all in all, we are growing and learning to handle our emotions better