First thing my sister does every morning is to ask me how I’m doing, what I will eat the whole day, from morning to evening. First thing she does when she comes from work is to give me a forehead kiss and ask how my day was. I know this is mostly seen in American movies but this is something we’ve been doing over the years.
I woke up feeling okay or so I thought. I have been overwhelmed for a while now. I couldn’t even name the reasons at first, not because they are a lot but simply because I can’t pinpoint my what I have been feeling to a particular thing.
My sister woke up and asked me how I was doing and what I would like to eat for the day as usual and before I could realize, I was already in tears, literally.
So she came really close to find out why I was crying and I kept on saying it’s nothing. Is it really nothing? Yes it’s nothing but at the same time everything. As I said I can’t pinpoint any particular reason why I’m in that situation.
She allowed me to let it all out, oh boy! All I could remember was my grandma and my cousin. In a space of 2 years I had lost two really important people in my family and I miss them but no amount of tears would bring them back to life.
On a bright side, I have my sister who has always been by my side through thick and thin. I’m not even talking about my mom because her support is really immeasurable and if I start talking about it, I might not finish. I realized I was making her really sad so I composed myself and stop crying. It was already getting to afternoon so I asked her if she wasn’t going to work and that’s when she told me she called in sick just to stay at home with me. “Oh” I thought to myself. In another world of mine I got to see how important I am to my sister.
After a long conversation with her we both figured out the problem. I have never in my life been left alone to decide for myself or do things on my own. I never even had to think for myself because at each point there was always someone to do it for me.All my life, I have always had to be told what to do and now that I had to be doing things on my own, it was overwhelming. Sometimes I tell people I now wake up and do certain basic things myself and they laugh because they think I’m just joking but none of that is a joke. I’ve always had to be told the simple things before I do them so this is an achievement for me.(I’m such a baby, I know)
I’m glad I got to have this conversation with my sister and henceforth we’ll take it step by step. Knowing how much my sister alone cares for me was enough to rejuvenate me. (Back to normal self!!!)
HPUD
I haven’t really ever written about powering up before but I guess there’s always a first time for everything. I wasn’t really okay with my growth in April so I think I will try harder in May. As at the time I was writing this post, my HP was 1,211.734. I powered up 71.608 to get to an HP of 1,283.383. I like rounded numbers so I might as well just add 17 to make it 1300…let’s see!
This is my entry for the first day of #mayinleo prompt.
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