Have you ever felt so hurt that you cried as if someone beat you or someone actually inflicted you with that pain? Well this is what happened to me this evening.
I had felt tired from the whole days work, not that I really did anything straining , nah , nothing like that , I just did house chores and also did some errands and also I made sure to take care of my face because I had recently spotted pimples which I knew I needed to act fast on. All that is girl's talk, here's the real gist because I cried like never before today, even when I was heart broken last year, even when I got beaten up last year, I didn't cry as much as I cried today and to top it all I cried alone without any one to say sorry to me that what even doubled the whole tears.
It started Raining heavily and I was fast asleep only to to wake up to droplets of water on the bed and I knew I had to act fast or I would be swimming soon after. I rushed out of the room to get bowls to use in catching the water droplets that were already fast soaking the bed , I carried the mattress up and leaned it on the wall and that was when I noticed there were other parts of the room that was leaking , thanks to the heavy breeze I think it removed the roofing and dhas made the room start leaking , I had to rush with more bowls and plates and trays to catch the droplets, and I proceeded to using a rag in mopom away the extra water , next was moving the electric stuff, pc, phone , Powerbank etc away from the room hence water was going to spoil it , well I carried the pc first successfully and proceed to carry the extension box , only for me to slip on the water that had drops in another angle on the ground..I hit my head hard that my ears started ringing, and then from my waist till my bum , it had hurt so much , I just laid there and began crying , I felt so hurt , I felt the pain run through me like i have never experienced such a thing.
I really cried my eyes out tonight cause it was unexpected and the part that no one was there to say sorry even hurt the most , like I don't know how to explain that feeling that came afterwards and I resumed another round of crying this time not for the pains I was feeling but for the feeling of loneliness that was creeping in slowly.
Will I survive ? yes I sure will survive , sometimes it's just those emotions that we have let to pile up that comes out at once at an happening just like what happened today, I just know that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and yeah I am going to be stronger ,that is a sure thing for me.
