There was this time in my life when I really doubted myself like everything just felt so heavy, after my separation with my ex-hubby last year, I remember sitting alone one night and I was just thinking, how on earth am I going to take care of myself and these kids all by myself? Like.... It was one of those moments when fear just eats deep into your mind and makes you question every single thing about yourself.
See I won’t even lie, I was so troubled ,really troubled, there were nights when I could not sleep properly because my mind was constantly running wild with thoughts like, What if I fail? What if I can’t give them the kind of life they deserve? I felt like I was walking in circles, trying to figure things out but not knowing where to even start from, people around me would say things like, “You are strong, you will be fine,” and honestly, at that time, I did not even believe it myself, I just smiled and nodded, but deep down, I was scared to my bones.
I think what really helped me begin to overcome that self doubt was when I realized that, no matter how afraid I was, life was still moving, the bills were still coming, the kids still needed food, school fees, care everything, so, I had to sit myself down one day and say, “Treasure, if you keep letting fear win, you will never move forward.” that was the day I made up my mind to just start where I was and take things one step at a time.
I started prioritizing , like really deciding what mattered most, I knew I could not fix everything overnight, but I could at least make sure the kids were fine, and that I was doing something meaningful with my time, I focused more on writing, engaging on Hive, and finding little ways to keep things going, some days were good, some days were not, but I stayed true to my cause, I told myself, you have come this far, you can’t go back now.
It took a while, but slowly, things started making sense, i began to see progress, little by little, and that built my confidence again I realized that I was actually doing it not perfectly, but I was surviving, I didn’t need to have everything figured out, I just needed to keep showing up and doing what I could.
Now, when I look back, I just smile because that phase taught me strength in a way nothing else could,the same me that once doubted herself now knows that I can face whatever life throws my way, I might not have all the answers, but one thing I know for sure is that I will always find a way.
Sometimes, self doubt comes in just to test us, but overcoming it just reminds us of who we really are , we are strong, capable, and also unstoppable.
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