June 2024 I resumed a new company after making a rather surprising decision to exit my previous organization which I genuinely loved and many believed I was on a strong career path. My reasons at the time were personal but at the same time rather inexplicable - I had lost my Father earlier in the year and my body was yearning for change, a fresh start of sorts. Let's just say it made sense in the moment.
The offer itself wasn't a bad one. It was significantly better than my previous company in terms of both the Job role and remuneration. It wasn't exactly an easy decision but an understandable one at least. I had at least convinced myself that if I didn't get the satisfaction I wanted from my previous job role the money will at least be enough compensation. That has apparently turned out to be false.
It should come as no surprise though. It was naivety to think that money could replace the rarity of true workplace satisfaction. More than a year has passed since that decision and I certainly have a few reservations about it. My free-time has more or less completely eroded; the work environment isn't exactly conducive and even from a financial standpoint I'd say am doing a lot worse compared to how I was before joining the company.
Unfortunately am a year plus older now and can't really do much about what has been done in terms of recovering what feels like lost time and finances. There is only the option of forging a path ahead which seems like a challenge in itself. The goal is to forge a clear exit plan within the next 5 years with an openness to serendipity.
It isn't like I have anything better to do after all.